convince yourself!

Elle Woods said, "You must always have faith in yourself...". see?? huh?! but, still, i feel the same way. sigh... i am begging for some miracles, pliiiizzzzz, to The Creator of the world and each tiny creature in it, save my life...

counting days...

two days to my suicide mission, counting every second to my own battle with no back-up. i feel like my heart is beating so loud through my skin. every time i take a deep breath, makes me feel exactly much worse.