'the runaway girl'

no matter how much good things i've done, or how success i am as human being, i remain as 'the runaway girl', right???!!!


but, those kind of things, are risks that i'm willing to take when i chose this path.


i was trying so hard to make myself happy, and i still am.



i guess, it's time to fix problems that i made 2 years ago.

unable to play that game!

it's been 2 years (Gosh!) since i made a move or flirt to a guy. though it was stupid and lame, at least back when i had the courage. but now?! i have no idea how to look cool in front of those species from mars. i don't know how to react, i don't know how to play this game anymore. even worse, i don't know what i feel. i don't feel like i like him, or i don't like him. i'm feeling nothing (again).

my biggest dream (it really is just a dream)

to be able to paint and draw like an artist is my biggest dream. seeing colorful paint, paint brushes, canvas, sketch books, and all those things, makes me realized how stupid i was back when, for turning down a chance to be an architect. architect is an artist who creates those artistic building around us, right?! however, i am just following my heart and my destiny. the path that i am walking on, i don't know where it is going to end, or where it leads me.

as master oogway said: "yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, but today is a gift. that is why it's called the present."

i really have to remember those quotes.

i am afraid with what the future holds for me. freaking out, really.

but still, i didn't through this day well. i didn't appreciate it as a gift.

and now that i am full with regrets, i just turned it into history.