if i were...

if i were a character in a movie, i will be the one who tend to suicide.

i've never realized before, that i quitted on so many things in my life.

it seems that i am a quitter after all.

une carte postale

nowadays, e-mail is more popular than postcard. although it's true that email is such an amazing way to connect with other people, well it's fast and easy (you can hit the 'send' button while you're snoring), but i found that postcard is kind of romantic. those tiny little piece of paper flew far far away through ocean and continent with sentence like "i love you" or "take care" to the recipient. those silly sentence were meaning full.



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http://www.luxegen.ca/wp-content/uploads/2008/11/sweetheart2-copy1.jpg 

gummy candies

gummy candies keep me happy. oh, i love this sensation!




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i don't pray

i do the routine, but i don't pray. i don't hope for anything. i had failed on so many things while my hope was up in the sky. i've grown up as a cynical and skeptic.

disappointed? sad?

i don't know. i'm feeling nothing.


see my face, and it's all bright pink and colorful! see my heart, it's all dark grey and blue!

my mood!

well, my mood turned upside down today. i felt powerless also. i am sure that i could do better, but my brain, my heart, my body didn't want to. it felt like i had given up already long time before i did the exam. not that i don't want to have a great mark, or i was lazy, it just felt like i was numb. that was all happened, although i studied hard at night before the exam.

silly fact this week!

silly fact this week about me is...

i emptied a part of my wallet (what we call it???), the part where we can put a photo in it... i'll put a great photo in there someday. me and my boyfriend, hahaha! he should be the most perfect combo of mcdreamy + mcsteamy. hahahahahaha...




i know, i know...




hey,dreaming is not a crime guys!


it's just a silly thing...

no moaning!

after those crazy times i've been through, i feel fine now. not that my life is out of problem, but i guess i can see things more clearly from now on. i know what i want, what i need. i keep my self busy. and i'm doing the best i can to keep my self alive. so i won't think about things i shouldn't think. :)


i don't wanna be whiny girl.





uuugghhh... that's pathetic.